THIS GIRL IS A TRUE PATRIOTIC ( I love Singapore!! )

Ten days without chili in UK / London left my tongue and stomach and body so miserable...

After arriving in Changi Airport yesterday, I told Dad "PLEASE BRING ME TO DAMSEY ROAD FOR INDIAN FOOD. LITTLE INDIA ALSO CAN."

"So late already, no more la. Chompchomp?"

"OKAY!"

Off we went. Here are the items this starved little girl ordered.

"Uncle, one oyster hokkien mee, put alot of chili, I want the $8 one for sharing"

"Chili at the side or what?"

"No. Cook the chili into the hokkien mee then give me one big big scoop of sambal at the side. Thanks"

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"Uncle, I want satay, mutton 5 chicken 5 and 1 ketupat"

"Okay"

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"Auntie, give me one stingray, put ALOT of chili and pepper and sambal belachan."

"Okay"

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"Uncle, one prawn noodle soup one"

"Okay"

( This is penang prawn noodles so the soup is spicy )

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"Uncle I want sugarcane juice plus lemon"

AND THEN, I ATE THE WHOLE GIANT PORTION OF HOKKIEN MEE, AND THE STINGRAY, AND THE PRAWN NOODLES, AND THE SATAY AND THE SUGARCANE JUICE.

I sweated like hell and kept on blowing my nose. SHIOK!

Then this morning I woke up and went to Old Airport Road for fishball meepok dry ( uncle please put more chili ) and almond paste with white fungus and ahbaoling with ginger soup and yam paste with ginko nuts.

LOCAL FOOD IS THE BEST MAN.

Even though I got diarhhoea today, I do not regret stuffing myself, not one bit.

Current cravings:

Peanut and sesame yin yang paste

Szechuan mala steamboat

Chngtng

Jia Jia herbal liang teh

Roti prata and all other indian food.

Kimchi

Laksa

Curry chicken nooooodles

Fishhead steamboat

Red bean soup

Barley ginko

Spicyyyyy black bean fish

Thai food

Shhhhhhhhhhh_ _ iiiiiiiiiii _

Okayyyyyyyyy I will blog a really really long post about UK / London another day. The food there starved me okay, it didn't taste that great and everything was expensive as hell. Absolutely no chili to be found anywhere, trying to kill this Asian girl? But other than that, THE TRIP WAS AWESOME!!! Love the stuff and sights there. Truly wonderful.

Allen VS Lambert

Okay firstly, KRIS ALLEN WON!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY.

Ariel and Nanthini almost killed me on Monday when I said that hey, Kris is better.

Come on, Adam's like some freaking scary screaming person there. I have to admit, his voice range blows me away. He is soooooo talented. BUT, Kris knows how to make every song sound special! Kris can make all the songs he sings sound so beautiful and when I hear him sing, my heart flutters and I meltttttt and feel happy and loved.

Would you rather buy a cd with lots of opera-style kind of rock songs with weird screamy parts or a cd with songs that make you feel good and happy? SERIOUSLY. Stop saying Adam should have won and that Kris sucks because both are winners, and even though Kris won, Adam's not seen as a loser right????????? Shut up already.

I CANNOT WAIT FOR KRIS'S CD TO COME OUT

THANK YOU

Omg I'm like fifteen!

First of all, a very very vvvvvvvv BIG THANK YOU to Chan Zhi Xuan for planning my whole birthday and Anisiah, Syuhaidah, Deepa, Tammie, Hafizah Thank you thank you thank you for taking me to Vivo and watching a horror movie which I. TOTALLY. ENJOYED. !!!
And making me do the birthday dares was so funnnnnnnn!

&, THANKS FOR THE SURPRISE GUEST.

Thank you all, 3N for the birthday song and cake and who's idea was it to blindfold me and put me on the table huh? HAHAHA

THANK YOU 2S*08 FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY SONG AND GROUP HUG OMG I WAS SO TOUCHED OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU ALL. We must have a gathering after midyears like seriously. And please stick to the every-time-in-the-hall-2S-will-sit-together-thing. Haha. !

Thanks Marlene for bringing me to watch the Little Nyonya musical!!! It was so so so so wonderful! I love the Peranakan Ball! And we took pictures with celebrities omg.

Thank you lovely people who wished me happy birthday through text and msn!

Thanks for all those cards and presents and stuff! *hugs* I love you all very very much and I am so happy yayyyyyyyy

THANKS DADDY! For the iPhone 3G, the new massage chair, the shopping spree and yesterday's dinner. I LOVE THE INDIAN FOOD THERE TO THE MAX.  I am currently obsessed with my iPhone.

THANK YOU GRANDPA AND GRANDMA for coming to Singapore this month to stay with me and celebrate my birthday! I love you two and Grandma, your cooking pwns x 9999999999999. It's so hard to find good Indonesian food here in Sg. Thanks for cooking awesome food and bringing a little part of home here to me...

THANK YOU MUMMY, for the Esprit bag! Love it.

THANK YOU FAMILY, for the Japanese cake!! Matcha + Red beans = Nice!

I am a very happy and blessed girl.

Happy Birthday...

17th May
Crystal Lee

18th May
ME

19th May
Grandma
Mr Seem
Syafiq Poh

20th May
Clarence
Priscilla
Charlene

21st May
Amanda Tan

Pictures should be on Facebook, I think? Heh.
Oh, thank you Facebook for wishing me Happy Birthday too!

My Tarot

The Knight of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in passion. Pursuing and expressing my hearts desire honours my love, passion and beauty and is worth waiting, courting or crusading for. What I lack in external means, qualification or ability, I make up for with a true and dedicated heart. I am not a victim therefore I do not need to rescued. I am empowered by patience or self-worth and my gift is emotional availability and devotion.

My Horoscope

Over the course of this week, you'll be inspired to take action. Over the weekend, many threads come together to bring you a happy surprise. Saturn will also turn direct in your love and creativity zone, which is going to help a number of issues get resolved. Instead of paddling upstream, you'll begin to go with the flow and find life a lot easier. Your confidence in yourself and your abilities will improve as you realize that you do have more than enough talent to be successful. You're on your way.

WHAT IS UP WITH THIS HUH? STOP TELLING ME TO GET OVER THIS AND THAT I HAVE A BETTER PATH AHEAD OF ME. I am trying already. You think I can do it immediately? WHAT I LACK IN EXTERNAL MEANS, QUALIFICATION OR ABILITY?! YOUR ABILITIES WILL IMPROVE?! So obviously now I'm not good enough as I've found out already. Stop rubbing it in.

well after reading all this I really do feel terribly inadequate but there's nothing I can do, can I.

as I've mentioned earlier I never will be, good enough.

I hate everything now and my feelings are getting ugly. be sanguine, Steph, ( try to ) be sanguine

Mellow roll for the flavour and the eyes for peeping

I'm not good enough,
I'm never good enough,
I probably won't ever be good enough.

Instead of sitting here and blaming myself and feeling all sorry for letting myself down and being defeated, I will not let disappointment take hold of me and I will do something productive.

what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger

Thank you, God, for all You have given me